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I saw the name of this group and thought "whoa, that's me".
I'm quite a bit 'intellectual', and while I wouldn't define myself by being sad, I might just as well define myself by being lonely and these are connected.

I just haven't found anyone who is really on my wavelength. I haven't found anyone who is interested in ancient languages, math, computer science, bio, physics, some chem, religions, history, philosophy.... all at the same time. Back in primary school all the girls wanted to become nurses, teachers, vets, doctors, own a flower shop or so. All the boys wanted to be policemen, firemen, astronauts, construction workers and the like. I wanted to be a mathematician, a historian, a teacher, a poet, an electrical engineer, a philosophy professor, a particle physicist, a cosmologist and an astronaut.

I'm turning out to be a computer scientist/mathematician, but I still haven't lost my love for my other fields of interest.

And you'd think with plenty of interests there are plenty of people to associate with, but everyone seems to think I'm weird, and it's not that I'm particularly good at social contacts. In fact, I find connecting with people astonishingly difficult. There's so much you can do wrong, so many subtle things one can overlook which results in making more mistakes.

Not that I'd expect it but if anyone wishes to, feel free to add me, talk to me and such. I swear, I don't bite!

[Oh, BTW - I beg your pardon for my imperfect command of the English language. I'm a foreigner and entirely self taught.]


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Sep. 6th, 2009 12:30 am (UTC)
okay, serously i love most of the subjects and interests u just listed. i love everything thats go to do with sciene (isnt it just awesome. i sound like a nerd right now)
not that good at maths. just dont understand it, but i get A's most of the time.
i no im being random and stuff but HI!!
Sep. 17th, 2009 07:00 pm (UTC)
I wouldn't call myself intellectual(just curious about a lot of stuff) but I do think we have some things in common. I find socializing hard, too. Your interests match mine, as well. So I'm adding you :)
Jan. 23rd, 2012 06:10 pm (UTC)
I don't bite either ;)! And often times feel like a social out-cast. I, like you, have many interests and you would think that having so many flowers in a garden would invite honey bees to pollinate and create fields of daises. But all too often, that is not the case. Most of my disconnect with others my age, gender, or kinship are based on the fact that I am not considered "cool" because I don't do drugs and drink very little. I thought as I aged, these "uncool" things would become less and less of a speed bump in my social circle. However, if anything they have become more prevalent and discouraging. I don't feel above or below anyone. I don't feel I am more intellectual or wise-I just feel lonely and lost in a world that is over intoxicated with worldly and superficial "feel good" remedies.

What I am trying to say is; you are not alone in how you feel.
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