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i'm hoping this community is still active

hey there, i just found this community while i did an interest search for "overthinking". i definitely overthink way too much, striving for unreachable perfection in some things, like the perfect girl to date or the perfect job. i'm hoping i could find some people that could relate and give some tips to calm my brain down a bit.

Be my damn friend

I believe I am fairly intellectual, particularly when I compare myself to the majority of other kids in my grade...

It is this, and many other things that contribute to the fact that I cannot make any friends. 
I've barely lived life, as far as teenage standards go-- I've spent most of my time indoors, on the computer, for years now, as a result of being friendless. Never been drunk, never partied, never been to a show, haven't really had a close friend since I was in grade 7, never really had fun since grade 7...
I'm in such a frustrating position-- I'm reluctant to pursue certain social situations because I have no friends. So since I don't often enter these, I remain without friends, and furthermore remain in a perpetual state of friendlessness! Not to mention the fact that if you already don't have friends, kids tend to not want to be friends with you. So what do you do?
The only place one can go is the internet. I've made these littles cries for help on groups such as this, but I never really make any friends off as a result, which is pretty weird to me. 

I have a couple pretty good online friends but one has a boyfriend now and is busy with school and gets grounded a lot so I hardly talk to her... Sometimes it's really frustrating to go to school, not talk to anyone, come home looking forward to someone, and there's still no one there.

I'm pretty different too. 17, gay, high voice (I don't do it on purpose. I've just always sounded like a girl), obscure music and movie tastes, reserved, shy, quiet, artistic, and of course intellectual.
I know there are other kids who share my music and movie tastes and are artistic and intelligent, but somehow I just don't tend to get close to those people, and I wish I did... Maybe I just don't feel good enough for them.

I'm getting really sick of having no friends. I've been told "Be happy, you have the best person already: yourself" but I've been by myself for years, and I'm tired of it.
If you want a little online friend or whatever, just friggin add me to msn or leave a comment or whatever. I'd be happy, and you'd gain a friend. Everybody wins.

earth_wind@hotmail.com  <--- do itttt 

I don't like to use the expression "have no friends". You know why? Because it makes a person sound like a bad person who no one likes. And that is NOT what/how I am. I am a loner (there's a better description) because I don't make friends EASILY, I live around a bunch of dumbwits, and I am smarter than majority of whom I go to school with. 
So I don't make friends well for these reasons, and these reasons only. Inside, i love people. I am fascinated and interested in them so much. I love to listen to them, and I love to be around them. However, I can't seem to find anyone "my type", as in intellectual, in the great city of Baton Rouge, Louisiana, not even to mention at the school I attend. I just don't know what's up, why I am so above the rest and why none of them ever understand a thing I talk about, or why they don't hold the same interests that I do. I tend to dig down deeper past  surface of things, I read a lot, nonfiction, and reject western consumer culture, not intentionally, but automatically, because it doesn't suit my interests. 
My lack of social life is contributed by the fact that i can never find anyone to talk with who is my age or close and shares the same kowledge and itellect. 
At least this site helps a lot, and other boards I get on regularly. Unsurprisingly I have found a few people here and there who seem to (SEEM to) be just like me-- my age too-- and I wish more that there were more of those kinds around here!! So that I could at least spend HUMAN time with them....

Okay so the point of this post was to bring up the fact that I would LOVE it if anyone 18 or around that age would like to add me, or be added by me, just speak up, so that I can discover new persons whom I can identify with. I would offer to exchange IM or messenger or whatever, MySpace, but like I said I disregard (more like don't even notice) the consumer culture most of the time and lack those appliances within my life. And I hate the site MySpace anyway {-------- that remark is gonna get a LOT of comments I bet)

I am intellectual, and I am REALLY REALLY SAD
sad that there aren't any like me around where I live to make friends with!!!


Yes, Ive been looking for someone to talk to. Maybe this is the place for me. I don't care whether of not Philosophy is used or not. I just want a community where people recognize certain basic, easy, obvious things. Like no matter how much you don't like to hear it, you will be told what to do the rest of your life. Its a simple fact. Now lets cooperate and learn something.

Where's the Philosophy?

A community for intellectuals without 'philosophy' listed in their interests page?

Is this something horrible? Is this the extent to which popular culture (N.B. I hate popular culture) has infiltrated our lives, that even an intellectual community does not see the importance of philosophy?

At which point, you may well ask, 'what's so important about philosophy,' to which I may well reply, 'shut up.'

But nonetheless, I would appreciate a cogent reason for not including philosophy in the interests list of this community.


P.S. And where's Monty Python? Maybe its privation is the reason for the 'sad' prefix in the community name...
*hug* for anyone who needs one today. :-/

Yay, France!

France acts to outlaw denial of (Armenian) genocide.


no one gets my jokes

I was in the kitchen, putting the clean dishes away & as I grabbed a knife, I realized I was pointing toward myself & quickly turned it around & down. I laughed and said "Is this a dagger I see before me?" My mom, who was making bread, asked, "What?" I knew it had been lost on her, but I repeated myself, & she asked, "Is that Shakespeare?" *sigh*

In My Life...

There are places I'll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All this places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more

J. Lennon, 1964


All Those Years Ago:

I’m shouting all about love
While they treated you like a dog
When you were the one who had made it
So clear
All those years ago.

I’m talking all about how to give
They don’t act with much honesty
But you point the way to the truth when you say
All you need is love.

Living with good and bad
I always look up to you
Now we’re left cold and sad
By someone the devil’s best friend
Someone who offended all.

We’re living in a bad dream
They’ve forgotten all about mankind
And you were the one they backed up to
The wall
All those years ago
You were the one who imagined it all
All those years ago.

Deep in the darkest night
I send out a prayer to you
Now in the world of light
Where the spirit free of the lies
And all else that we despised.

They’ve forgotten all about god
He’s the only reason we exist
Yet you were the one that they said was
So weird
All those years ago
You said it all though not many had ears
All those years ago
You had control of our smiles and our tears
All those years ago

G. Harrison, 1981

What more needs to be said?

Apr. 17th, 2006

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